I can never find myself getting used to the inconsistency in my life, which makes sense i suppose. all of these ups and downs have been wearing me out and i can never seem to find a way to take a break and get back to normal. i dont feel like myself as much as i should or as much as i want to. A cohort of mine introduced me to this poem today, it is how i feel sometimes. by Frank O'Hara
Now I am quietly waiting for
the catastrophe of my personality
to seem beautiful again,
and interesting, and modern.
The country is grey and
brown and white in trees,
snows and skies of laughter
always diminishing, less funny
not just darker, not just grey.
It may be the coldest day of
the year, what does he think of
that? I mean, what do I? And if I do,
perhaps I am myself again.
Wednesday, October 19, 2011
Wednesday, August 10, 2011
round 2
I am sitting in my brand new (to me) apartment, all alone since my roommate isn't moved in yet, bored out of my mind. The reason for this is not a lack of things to do, but more so a lack of materials needed to do those things. You see, I have a fashion show coming up for which i need to have a mini collection (five cohesive pieces) of recycled/green/sustainable materials completed. For this i am making a continuation of the pop tab dress i did in the spring, so i have been using a bunch of alternative materials. I am at a point where i very much need a glue gun, but i have forgotten that at home... which brings me back to sitting alone on my couch in front the the air conditioner (which is such a blessing). So i figured since is has been quite a while since my last post, i would update the 0-2 people that actually follow this blog.
1. i have dyed my hair red! not orangey red, like natural gingers, but red red. like firey red. i have been wanting to do this for many months and for some reason built up the guts to do it one week. the first dye i tried turned my hair a dark coppery brown, which was nice, but not what i was looking for. i felt so bland with brown hair since i have not had normal hair since i can remember. so 2 days ago i re colored my hair and got the desired color. Not going to lie, Rihanna was a big influence in this decision because let's face it, she looks great with red hair.
2. project runway has started! it is two, almost three weeks in and i find my self counting down the days until thursday rolls around because that is how much i enjoy it. i hope you know exactly what im talking about when i say that project runway is a gem. like diamond status. however, i don't think i will be getting cable here in fort collins which means i must 1)wait an extra day to watch the episodes online on friday, or 2) make friends with someone who has cable, but who also doesn't watch jersey shore, since they are on at the same time. This one i consider to be darn well impossible so it looks like i'll be waiting an extra day.
3. last weekend i participated in a fashion show in denver. it was "faith based" charity benefit show in which i showed 8 pieces that we're made in the past or just recently made. i was one of three designer to show and i had a great experience! i got a few offers from people to buy my clothes, and for high prices too! i also made lots of connections with local designers, models and photographers, so hopefully they will come in handy in my future! i dont quite have pictures from that yet but hopefully they will come soon. I had a bunch of family friends come to support me which really meant alot. i'm pretty sure that they were at least 25% of the audience!
4.i am beginning my second year at CSU in a few short days! i have a great course load, which consists of only one class that i am dreading. Public speaking. gross gross gross gross. i serious hate speaking in front of people, however i do see the value of it. i think the main reason i am not excited for the class is the preparation of the speeches, not necessarily the talking in front of the class. As i get older i find that less intimidating, thankfully. i am sure it will go well as long as i have a rather lenient teacher. i looked up here rating online at work today, and it looks like she wont be too bad!
well, that is not alot of news, but it must be the important news since that is all i can think of right now. i will continues to update this bloggy often if i can! maybe then it will be more enjoyable!
:) loverretta
1. i have dyed my hair red! not orangey red, like natural gingers, but red red. like firey red. i have been wanting to do this for many months and for some reason built up the guts to do it one week. the first dye i tried turned my hair a dark coppery brown, which was nice, but not what i was looking for. i felt so bland with brown hair since i have not had normal hair since i can remember. so 2 days ago i re colored my hair and got the desired color. Not going to lie, Rihanna was a big influence in this decision because let's face it, she looks great with red hair.
2. project runway has started! it is two, almost three weeks in and i find my self counting down the days until thursday rolls around because that is how much i enjoy it. i hope you know exactly what im talking about when i say that project runway is a gem. like diamond status. however, i don't think i will be getting cable here in fort collins which means i must 1)wait an extra day to watch the episodes online on friday, or 2) make friends with someone who has cable, but who also doesn't watch jersey shore, since they are on at the same time. This one i consider to be darn well impossible so it looks like i'll be waiting an extra day.
3. last weekend i participated in a fashion show in denver. it was "faith based" charity benefit show in which i showed 8 pieces that we're made in the past or just recently made. i was one of three designer to show and i had a great experience! i got a few offers from people to buy my clothes, and for high prices too! i also made lots of connections with local designers, models and photographers, so hopefully they will come in handy in my future! i dont quite have pictures from that yet but hopefully they will come soon. I had a bunch of family friends come to support me which really meant alot. i'm pretty sure that they were at least 25% of the audience!
4.i am beginning my second year at CSU in a few short days! i have a great course load, which consists of only one class that i am dreading. Public speaking. gross gross gross gross. i serious hate speaking in front of people, however i do see the value of it. i think the main reason i am not excited for the class is the preparation of the speeches, not necessarily the talking in front of the class. As i get older i find that less intimidating, thankfully. i am sure it will go well as long as i have a rather lenient teacher. i looked up here rating online at work today, and it looks like she wont be too bad!
well, that is not alot of news, but it must be the important news since that is all i can think of right now. i will continues to update this bloggy often if i can! maybe then it will be more enjoyable!
:) loverretta
Sunday, April 10, 2011
"i feel like such a waster of time!"
wow, i'm quite a slacker on this blog...
all of my free time is devoted to one of the following
1. sewing
i am trying to finish the last two dresses (of three) that i making for a recycled fashion show. the rules are that each thing much be made 70% out of recycled/recyclable material, and the other 30% can be fabric, closures,thread, etc. i of course decided to do way too much, and am late on the deadline. they are not too strict on that luckily! the show is on the 28th so i need to have them done by then. in addition to those recycled things, i have sewing to do for one of my classes. we're in the process of making a jacket. i chose to do a little gray blazer and i am looking forward to wearing it when i'm finished!
2. school/homework/projects/tests
luckily this semester is not too stressful! i have a pretty easy workload. every once in a while i have to spend extra hour working on computer designs for two classes, and i write papers about once a week for my comp. class, and of course i study for tests when they come around. all in all, homework doesn't take up nearly as much time as i would think! the only down fall of this is that when it is necessary to do homework, it is especially hard to get myself focused!
3. friendies
i absolutely love bonding with people, especially kind, genuine, fun, exciting, and in some case attractive people. i don't know if i've mentioned my friend amy, but she's just the best, and in her dorm i have met so many great people. every weekend i spend lots of time over there and i usually get closer to a different person every time. this weekend it was a boy from hawaii, who is good looking and fun and great, so basically that was enjoyable.
4.work
i got a job! i have only worked a few hours, but it is still sort of weird getting used to having a job in school. i work for the rocky mountain collegian, which is the school newspaper. i work for advertising as a designer. the designers are responsible for formatting, making changes to, and at times designing ads that go in the paper. i really enjoy it so far but i get overwhelmed with all the information that i need to learn, since i'm not super comfortable with different types of files and what works with which programs and what not. i will get it though, hopefully!
5. doing absolutely nothing
...by myself. i am really always doing something when im with people, even if it's only talking or playing video games. when im alone i feel like such a waster of time! like today i went to a barbeque with amy, but then i came home and i facebook-ed, and watched some tv, and laid around for 3 hours. my butt is numb from sitting for so long actually. i feel like this time in necessary for me though because i think i might go insane from being so busy all of the time! i just wish i wasn't sooo lazy sometimes though. i mean 3 hours? really? that's pushing it.
anyways, that's what's up.
my birfy is in 5 days! 19, yay!
i also really need to go to the grocery store, and i have needed to for probably a month, but i really don't want to walk there.
andddd, goodbye :)
loverretta
all of my free time is devoted to one of the following
1. sewing
i am trying to finish the last two dresses (of three) that i making for a recycled fashion show. the rules are that each thing much be made 70% out of recycled/recyclable material, and the other 30% can be fabric, closures,thread, etc. i of course decided to do way too much, and am late on the deadline. they are not too strict on that luckily! the show is on the 28th so i need to have them done by then. in addition to those recycled things, i have sewing to do for one of my classes. we're in the process of making a jacket. i chose to do a little gray blazer and i am looking forward to wearing it when i'm finished!
2. school/homework/projects/tests
luckily this semester is not too stressful! i have a pretty easy workload. every once in a while i have to spend extra hour working on computer designs for two classes, and i write papers about once a week for my comp. class, and of course i study for tests when they come around. all in all, homework doesn't take up nearly as much time as i would think! the only down fall of this is that when it is necessary to do homework, it is especially hard to get myself focused!
3. friendies
i absolutely love bonding with people, especially kind, genuine, fun, exciting, and in some case attractive people. i don't know if i've mentioned my friend amy, but she's just the best, and in her dorm i have met so many great people. every weekend i spend lots of time over there and i usually get closer to a different person every time. this weekend it was a boy from hawaii, who is good looking and fun and great, so basically that was enjoyable.
4.work
i got a job! i have only worked a few hours, but it is still sort of weird getting used to having a job in school. i work for the rocky mountain collegian, which is the school newspaper. i work for advertising as a designer. the designers are responsible for formatting, making changes to, and at times designing ads that go in the paper. i really enjoy it so far but i get overwhelmed with all the information that i need to learn, since i'm not super comfortable with different types of files and what works with which programs and what not. i will get it though, hopefully!
5. doing absolutely nothing
...by myself. i am really always doing something when im with people, even if it's only talking or playing video games. when im alone i feel like such a waster of time! like today i went to a barbeque with amy, but then i came home and i facebook-ed, and watched some tv, and laid around for 3 hours. my butt is numb from sitting for so long actually. i feel like this time in necessary for me though because i think i might go insane from being so busy all of the time! i just wish i wasn't sooo lazy sometimes though. i mean 3 hours? really? that's pushing it.
anyways, that's what's up.
my birfy is in 5 days! 19, yay!
i also really need to go to the grocery store, and i have needed to for probably a month, but i really don't want to walk there.
andddd, goodbye :)
loverretta
Friday, January 28, 2011
music
have you heard of Matt Hires? if not i would highly recommend that you look up his music. i don't know what it is, but every song that i have by him makes me feel very much emotionally attached to it. for example, i just listen to "Oh, Sunrise" and feel that nothing was a worthy of writing about as that song. i thought these lyrics were especially appropriate on a beautiful sunny day as today has been;
referring to the sun, im assuming...
"And lift up your head,
Oh, the night's long and lonely,
And nothing's the same when you're gone."
for quite some time i have been trying to compile a list of songs that i consider to be epic. i mean epic in the sense of they never cease to be incredibly great. this is my small list so far, in no specific order:
-Driving with the Brakes On - Del Amitri (thanks to one of my older siblings for this one)
-Beautiful Mess (From a Raining Jane Session) - Jason Mraz
-If It Kills Me (From the Casa Nova Sessions) - Jason Mraz
-Everybody Knows - John Legend
-The Great Escape - Patrick Watson
if anyone out there has a song they think is epic, timeless, meaningful, and enjoyable, i would honestly love to know what it is :)
music is in fact a big part of my day. in the morning when i have to get ready while my roommate is sleeping, i am able to choose whatever i want to listen to on my ipod, which is honestly quite difficult because i like variety, so i am constantly trying to find something different to listen to. on the morning when we both are getting ready, i have an even bigger challenge because i want to choose music that she and i will like. then on my way to class i have to make a selection to enjoy while i walk. then when i am doing homework i must choose something appropriate for the subject. then there are those times when im painting my nails, or sketching, or when i have friends over, or when i'm trying to cover up the noise of the screamo music coming form next door (i've found that nothing does that though), or when i eat a snack, all of which music is necessary as far as i'm concerned.
anywayyys,
school has begun and i am in love with it, or most of it at least. my favorite class is Intro to Apparel Design, in which we have already sketched over 20 designs, learned some pattern making, learned to sew on industrial machines, gotten to use sergers, and are working on making a skirt and its not even the third week yet! i love going to that class and i wish it lasted longer than 3 hours. i also enjoy my textiles class and my computer design class. the least great parts of my schedule are college composition and logic and critical thinking. however, those are really not too bad.
in other news, i met Mondo Guerra last night!! if you dont know who that is, he was runner up for project runway this past season, and he was my personal favorite due to his amazing use of color and pattern and his quirky personality. i met him at an FGI professional chapter meeting and was completely please with him. he was so warm, kind, confident, and comfortable being himself which is really something i admire. the only thing that brought me slighty down that night was the fact that my car broke on the way back to fort collins... i should have expected that.
referring to the sun, im assuming...
"And lift up your head,
Oh, the night's long and lonely,
And nothing's the same when you're gone."
for quite some time i have been trying to compile a list of songs that i consider to be epic. i mean epic in the sense of they never cease to be incredibly great. this is my small list so far, in no specific order:
-Driving with the Brakes On - Del Amitri (thanks to one of my older siblings for this one)
-Beautiful Mess (From a Raining Jane Session) - Jason Mraz
-If It Kills Me (From the Casa Nova Sessions) - Jason Mraz
-Everybody Knows - John Legend
-The Great Escape - Patrick Watson
if anyone out there has a song they think is epic, timeless, meaningful, and enjoyable, i would honestly love to know what it is :)
music is in fact a big part of my day. in the morning when i have to get ready while my roommate is sleeping, i am able to choose whatever i want to listen to on my ipod, which is honestly quite difficult because i like variety, so i am constantly trying to find something different to listen to. on the morning when we both are getting ready, i have an even bigger challenge because i want to choose music that she and i will like. then on my way to class i have to make a selection to enjoy while i walk. then when i am doing homework i must choose something appropriate for the subject. then there are those times when im painting my nails, or sketching, or when i have friends over, or when i'm trying to cover up the noise of the screamo music coming form next door (i've found that nothing does that though), or when i eat a snack, all of which music is necessary as far as i'm concerned.
anywayyys,
school has begun and i am in love with it, or most of it at least. my favorite class is Intro to Apparel Design, in which we have already sketched over 20 designs, learned some pattern making, learned to sew on industrial machines, gotten to use sergers, and are working on making a skirt and its not even the third week yet! i love going to that class and i wish it lasted longer than 3 hours. i also enjoy my textiles class and my computer design class. the least great parts of my schedule are college composition and logic and critical thinking. however, those are really not too bad.
in other news, i met Mondo Guerra last night!! if you dont know who that is, he was runner up for project runway this past season, and he was my personal favorite due to his amazing use of color and pattern and his quirky personality. i met him at an FGI professional chapter meeting and was completely please with him. he was so warm, kind, confident, and comfortable being himself which is really something i admire. the only thing that brought me slighty down that night was the fact that my car broke on the way back to fort collins... i should have expected that.
Friday, January 7, 2011
what a relief!
Much to my excitement, the rejection/acceptance letter from the apparel design and production program yesterday. i have been waiting for this since the middle of october when i turned in my portfolio/project. it contained 3 photos i took on the CSU campus, 3 fashion illustrations inspired by the photos, and for each one a one page paper explaining where the inspiration and my passion for design. I was not completely confident in the final result, but i am happy to say that I MADE IT!! i was so nervous and terrified to open that letter but when i read the first word "congratulations", i couldn't help but cry tears of joy. i didnt know just how worried i was until i knew the results. i am so so so thankful to have made it and am looking forward to all the things i will learn and do in the future (starting this semester!).
In other news, the holidays are over... although i am still on break... for another week and a half. Needless to say i am ready to return to school after discovering that news, and also i miss Fort Collins. I have had so much fun there in the past months and i am excited to get back to my routine and the new friends i have made there. however, i am going to miss being home, and i will especially miss the food. i remembered recently that i'll have to go back to dorm food soon, it was not a good moment.
I had a marvelous holiday, i loved loved loved spending time with my whole family, which is a rarity. christmas was especially fun with my eager nieces and nephews and their christmas spirit. My favorite was when Ella remembered that we needed to feed Santa's reindeer, but the reindeer food was left at home. We quickly whipped some up (oats and glitter) and the girls sprinkled it on the lawn for the reindeer. i am so thankful to have family that lives close and to have seen the family that doesn't live as close. news years was also very enjoyable. I got to spend it with the friends that left Colorado for college, so being able to spend time with them made it very memorable!
i hope everyone had a wonderful holiday season!
loverretta
In other news, the holidays are over... although i am still on break... for another week and a half. Needless to say i am ready to return to school after discovering that news, and also i miss Fort Collins. I have had so much fun there in the past months and i am excited to get back to my routine and the new friends i have made there. however, i am going to miss being home, and i will especially miss the food. i remembered recently that i'll have to go back to dorm food soon, it was not a good moment.
I had a marvelous holiday, i loved loved loved spending time with my whole family, which is a rarity. christmas was especially fun with my eager nieces and nephews and their christmas spirit. My favorite was when Ella remembered that we needed to feed Santa's reindeer, but the reindeer food was left at home. We quickly whipped some up (oats and glitter) and the girls sprinkled it on the lawn for the reindeer. i am so thankful to have family that lives close and to have seen the family that doesn't live as close. news years was also very enjoyable. I got to spend it with the friends that left Colorado for college, so being able to spend time with them made it very memorable!
i hope everyone had a wonderful holiday season!
loverretta
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